Tuyet.N

I have (not recently) managed to admit that this is utterly meaningless. I never have the time or interest in writing stuff here. Simplybecause I am lazy or, that the few things that happens in my life is either to precious to put down in words or to unimportant.
So if one would care to know how an ordinary day looks like to me it is as following:
1. I get up (early) have a nice and quiet breakfast before everyone else at the dorm arrives.
2. This is a space of time dedicated to lessons such as maths, english, pattern construction, textile materials, fashion drawing and so on.
3. When lessons ends,I run to the textile classroom with a lot of space, sewing mashines, a computer and bad air ventilation. Here I spend perhaps 4 hours or so depending on how often other people disturbes me by entering or just passing.
4. I drink a cup of tea (so nice to warm your cold fingers at a steaming cup of tea!^^) a cookie and studie/draws for some hours alone at my room.
5. Finally I enjoy a book and then falls asleep early just liak a baby.(Yes, it is simply impossible for me to stay awake late.)

So Now you know what wonderful/pathetic life I am living right now. Please do misunderstand me right. I have never been this pleased with my life until now. But still, I doubt that I will ever change and I an currently not sure wether I want to or not.

I spent one week in Paris and ofcourse I had to visit the Baby store^^
My school arranged an exchange so I was living at a guy and his family, they where very nice and welcoming so I enjoyed the entire stay in Paris.
So I asked Arthurto take me to the store and he did.
I was in a strange happystate all the time I was in there, it was wonderful.
Everything was so cute and it was so funny when M. Sawada wrapped the clothes really carefully. I ended up buying the pink bunny cutsew, a black headbow and the Red Ridinghood umbrella. When we got out I asked my friend Karin to take a picture and since I was so happu happu I have a very retarded face on this photo, but oh so wonderful!

Today I had breakfast while watching Shinmotsuma Monogatari /Kamikaze Girls. It is so sweet, totally adorable! I haven't seen it for a couple a weeks so I felt it was time for that. There was a time when I watched it at least once a week, so I have no clue about how many times I have seen it, but it is so absolutely adorable.
There is a lot of things that I love with this movie, the clothes are very cute of course, but what makes the film special is the characters and the humor.

"On September 3rd 1973, at 6:28pm and 32 seconds, a bluebottle fly capable of 14,670 wing beats a minute landed on Rue St Vincent, Montmartre. At the same moment, on a restaurant terrace nearby, the wind magically made two glasses dance unseen on a tablecloth..."

I just simply love this movie! I love the colorful way of life it shows and it gives you a cheerful feeling.
My french-teacher wanted me to do a paper and so I though I would write about the film. Mais c'est trés dificilé! It is really hard, I guess that my skill in french doesn't reach long enough.
Yes practice gives knowledge, but right now, it is a long way there.

So without my braincells melting away I'll try to cheer up by watching the fabulous movie^^

Even if I'm enjoying the easter break I can't wait until autumn when I will start at Apelryd in Båstad (in the south of Sweden). I want that textile-education and I want it now!

So soon it's easter and at the moment I'm free from school which is very nice.
All day long I am at the chocolate store and helping out, mainly because I need the money, we are going to Paris soon after all!
I can't wait until we actually get there and I can visit the Baby the stars shine bright store!
But for now, I have to save money, it's so boring, haha I love buying things.
As usual being in the chocolate store means a lot of eating chocolate, yummy ^^
Yesterday I got a letter from Apelryd, the school I have applied for. I am preliminary accepted and I will get the final admission in July.
The sad thing the letter told me is that their annual fashion-show will be during my Paris trip. So I can't go and see it!
I makes me really sad because I really want to see it and I think it is very important since the goal during each year is the fashionshow. Everyone alse that will be in my class will have seen it and know what it is about.
In someway, it really just seems like everything I really want to to this year has somewhat been at the same time as something alse.
Last autumn I had to go to Spain instead of doing a big clothing job.
Last month I was in Poland at the same time as I was invited at Micheal's opening-party for the new store. And now I can't watch the fashion-show (+ that I can't show my mom the school) since I'm in Paris.
Well hopefully things will be alright.

Not a thing has come to my mind to write here.
Maybe it is because I lack the time, the will or the power. Who knows?
And what does it matter anyway.



While I'm actually taking some time doing something properly I can showoff one of my latest bits of clothing. The strawberry skirt is made by me, including the embroidery ( which took around 2 months to finish).
The blouse is the same that I made to the Moon concert in Stockholm 27feb.
(Should try to find some pictures on that to)

My feet
Today I had a job as giving taste samples at the chocolate from the store I'm working in. People are so rude! They take the whole bowl of chocolate and walks away, and they return just to take chocolate 2 or 3 times without buying a single thing. Apart from that I had to stand straight for 7h. No wonder my feet hurts.
Sleep is all I want at the moment.

My brain. complicated...
Yesterday I finally realized, I have lost one of my friends. Not that I have that many, they are tricky.
Well it sort of started when he started high school, I'm still in junior high so we didn't see each other a lot. Then he found a new asian girl at his school and that was it. No just kidding but they really liked each other and now the final thing is done.
he and I along with another friend was supposed to go and see Marie Antoinette, we had been looking forward to the release and everything. When I said I could get the tickets he just said " I have a lot to do this weekend so I think it would be better to not rush it" That is the last I heard of him.
My remaining friend told me yesterday (this is the reason of my brain) that she had asked him when we were going to se MArie Antoinette, he had said "Well I don't have any plans to go see it with you guys"
My friend had been really surprised cause both she and I know how much he had been excited over the movie. "Well who will you go with then?" she had asked a bit surprised. "Duh, my girlfriend of course" he had answered.
No offense to him, I understand him, but in the same time I don't.
Maybe it was just meant to be like this. In a way, it might be wrong to say I've lost him. It's just that the hole he left behind really occurred to me yesterday.

Sometimes I wonder if this loneliness, this shell, this distance will eventually hurt me.
I don't want to be hurt,
I just want to live, dream and eat chocolate and all other kinds of sweet pastries.
My passions and dreams is all that matters, nothing else.

Nothing can happen, nothing can escape,

with walls made of stone and the protective shell of a doll.

Nothing can reach me, nothing can touch me

I am one of those dolls locked up in a castle.

Not for anyone to feel, not for anyone to touch.

There is no pain in my limbs or heart,

the icy coldness is a part of the castle.

None knows, none understands

the life of a doll.

A doll's life is fragile and unique,

Meant to wait for the master to unlock the castle gate.

I'm away 1 week from school and because of that I get loads of homework.
My english teacher gave me the hardest one. I am going to write about one thing that happened on my trip to Spain.

That wouldn't have been so hard, unless the little detail that I was forced to go to Spain by my flute teacher. Oh my, to be honest, I didn't do anything that would need more than 3 sentences to describe.

This is the thing with the Spain trip:
Our orchestra was invited to Spain by a nordic society to come and play at their 20years anniversary.
I was really doubtful for this from the beginning but unfortunately my teacher gave me not much of a choice. " Since you are the only second-flute you have to come with on this trip, otherwise we might not be able to do this trip" she siad. Well thank you, she said that unless I came along,
I would hold the blame for the orchestra not going to Spain. Not enough with that.
When I said I didn't want to go cause I had got an offer working 3 days at a clothing agency (what a lovely dream opportunity!) she said "That is far to late for that now, you just can't change your mind like that. Signing up for this trip is a special undertaking.
I can't let you jump off. You have to come with. You'll destroy everything for everyone else if you do.
Oh my gosh, that week I was so upset, cried in school and everything.
just hated that trip to Spain and the thought of knowing that I had to turn the clothing opportunity down and everything.
So I was forced to come along to Spain.
Since I was still upset about it I spent a lot of my time in the hotel room reading, making up new lolita designs and all that.
How funny will that be to write about.
Sigh! my english teacher is going to get really disappointed in me...

In a cold day like this I might as well write down what I find so lovely about this winterish season.

¤ Tea, I am a big tea-fan and drinks a lot of if. green tea is the best ^^
¤ Snow, Yeah I know but it is so soft and fluffy and still so cold hearted.
¤ Earmuffs, bought a really cute pair last monday, pink with pearls looking like hearts and bows.
¤ Being able to wrap oneself up in blankets and jsut drink tea and snooze. so cozy!
¤ Sewing, haha yes I sew all year around, but now one can sit hours at the machine and none can whine about me being inside all day.
¤ hot chocolate, an other sweet warm thing to drink. choco choco me daisuki...
¤ clothes, I put on a lot of layers of pretty petticoats and bloomers etc. not to get cold in the winter. It's funny to run around with enough clothes to look like a pink meatball.

Since I'm off school this week I went to visit my grandmother today.
I know she is old, but it has never really occurred to me until today, she is really old. And she knows herself and it seemed that she has aged a lot since I last saw her. and that was only 2 moths ago.
It is quite scary, the thought that life is so fragile and short. To me life seem short, but maybe to someone in her 80s it's not like that.
but the thought of losing people isn't inviting.
But I guess that's how life is.

Maybe just somethings you might wish would last longer.

Tuyet.N
is the name of the brand by me.
This is my dream that I am working on nothing more than that.

It is of course a lolita brand and so far it contains of headdresses and headpieces.
I am working on extending that to drawers and stuff though.
What more is there to say...
The first pieces was sold at uppcon07 in Sweden.
Nothing more to say really.